I have lived a good life. I have never gone without. Mine is a loving family and my parents are still married. I have always had what I needed and I know that I am blessed.
I never would have used the word abandoned to describe any part of my experience.
Yet when I thought about tapping for it I was overcome with sadness.
Even if you have never thought of yourself as abandoned you should tap along to this audio.
When We Feel Abandoned
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There’s a part of me…That when I tune into the idea of being abandoned…Really strikes a chord with that idea of being abandoned…And it’s not necessarily a specific memory for me…There’s not a specific moment…But there’s a heaviness…And there’s a sadness…And any time sadness shows up…It’s most often connected to…Missing something that’s important…Missing something that’s valuable…And there’s a part of me…That feels like I’ve lost something that’s important…It feels like I’m disconnected and abandoned…Even if I can’t necessarily name what that is…I am not alone…I am not disconnected…I am moving forward…And filling my life with what I need…And filling my life with what is important….And that sense of sadness…And that sense of feeling abandoned…It’s just the part of me…That wants connection…That wants better…That wants more…That part of me that feels abandoned…And that sadness that comes with it…I want it to know it’s heard loud and clear…I want it to know that it is fully integrated and connected…Even though it felt unsafe…It is now safe…Even though it feels like it was left alone…I am now connecting…In big and small ways…I’m now connecting…That part of me that feels like it was left behind…I acknowledge it…I love it…I feel connected to it…Even if I felt left…I want that part of me to know…It’s now loved.
Thank you, I really needed this. I felt this way as a child. My parents got rid of me and I was told by my adopted family, my father didn’t want girls. Even though my adopted family, told me I should “know” I was loved because they took me in. I love you was not said in my home. I don’t remember being happy as a child. I was told to be seen and not heard. I never felt good enough. I never felt i could do any thing right. I know they were good people, however times were different then. We have learned a lot sense the 50′ and 60’s. Thank God. Many Blessings to all.
Excellent work again Gene. I didn’t think I had any major work to do in this area as I had no real specific memories But boy was I wrong , lots of sadness coming up. I will return to this one again and again.